For example, I'm almost 5 weeks pregnant. In my first pregnancy, I was getting cravings and nausea by the sixth week. I remember it being fairly unpleasant. Right now I'm feeling the tiredness and nausea, but no food cravings or aversions just yet.
There are a lot of things that I experienced in the first pregnancy and with the first child birth where I thought, I will never ever forget this! But here I am 2 years later, and it's apparent that I've remembered very little. As they say, after the first year or two of your child's life, the amnesia kicks in. Thank goodness for that! I think if it weren't for the amnesia, the human race would have never thrived because no one would want to go through the birthing process again!!
I'm not sure yet if I'll make this blog public like I did with the first one, or just keep it private for Stu and me. The first time I was pregnant, I wanted to express myself because it was all so new and mysterious to me, and I wanted to compare notes and be a resource with other pregnant moms. It was like riding a roller coaster for the first time and being so excited about it that you wanted to document every twist and turn of this awesome ride.
Now I'm riding the roller coaster for the second time, and it's still pretty darn awesome and exciting, but some of the big dips or 360 turns aren't as surprising as they were the first time. The adrenaline is still pumping, but not as hard because I know what to expect, and I think I'll come off of this ride a little less dizzy.
This pregnancy feels a little more personal. Whereas in my first pregnancy, most of my attention was on my body and the physical changes through the pregnancy, this second round seems to be much more emotional and psychological. My worries this time are less about creating this baby than it is creating a loving and balanced environment for all of us to thrive in.
So we'll see...
Goodness. There is something about this entry that really resounds with me... if that makes sense? Love it, thanks for sharing.
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